Ok - first off, let me just say that I do not (and probably will never) consider myself to be "skinny." I'm not sure what the definition of that word even is, but I am pretty sure that you won't find my picture next to the word in the dictionary (if it's even IN the dictionary).
That said, there's this thing that has been happening. And, this thing happens to be causing me to have less motivation. This thing is compliments. Nice compliments. Ones I've hoped for for YEARS and thought that no one would ever say to me b/c I couldn't see the light at the end of this tunnel I'm in. People are calling ME this word. Now, I recognize that in comparison to my former self, this word is applicable. But I can't help but wonder - are the same people using this word in reference to me going to think I need to go eat a fatty hamburger (which, I just did btw! lol) when I ditch the rest of this weight?! hah!
The thing is - and don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for the comments, the compliments, etc. But, in a way - they are helping me to be comfortable. I feel good, I'm pretty happy with how I'm looking these days and I'm really capable physically. I'm not where I want to be, but, regardless, I feel good. I want to help people - I want my journey to inspire others and I want to pay it forward in a bigger way (more on that soon!). But I have GOT to get out of this complacent funk. Bootcamp is coming and I just signed up tonight for a spin class with Natalie over at Follow My Fitsteps. (If you're a Lawrence person, it's through parks and rec, so sign up!) I know that those 2 things are going to put a little motivation back in my game - I think being outside and being with some of the former bootcampers is going to help a lot and I'm excited about both things. We'll see how that goes!
That's all I have tonight, but I leave you with these questions.....
What does the word "skinny" mean to you and/or what is your definition of it?
Anyone else been in this place? Understand this? Have any words of wisdom? :sos: