Sunday, September 25, 2011

Make yourself.

Yes, it's been a while.  No, I don't have a good excuse.  I could go with the started, life is crazy etc.  While that's all true - it's also just part of it!  So - let's revisit the time from lunch bags until now, shall we?

School is indeed back in session - has been for a while.  I feel like I've finally adjusted to that routine.  Things have been tough emotionally, for a whole host of reasons and so I've been mostly working and sleeping.   Not a lot of gym time.  Strange for me, very strange.  I have been doing some jamming at home etc, but nothing close to my normal routine.

That my friends, is over.  My funk is over.  Let's all be impressed that it's taken 2 years for me to really find a true funk to be in.  lol  But - the weight isn't where I want it to be, I've not been as dedicated as I usually am, I'm more tired and more grumpy than normal.  I know that the gym is therapy for me - why I've let myself fall into this is a bit odd, but, I know it's a normal part of the ebb and flow of life.  I also know that Jam training took me off my normal routine (Yes, Amber told me this would happen, yes I believed her.  lol).  I'm SOOO glad I trained - I love jam (as I not so patiently wait to find out if my video assessment is a pass or not).  I love to teach and am anxious for the day when I get to do it more routinely and am on the schedule!  But, the training truly did take me completely off of my other personal goals.  Now that I've re-adjusted to work, I'm re-committing.  

Sometimes in the evenings I've not been wanting to go to the gym - so, I've got plans for starting up training again with Amber - it's really the only way I'm truly truly completely invested in the whole process AND it's what makes the weight go - so we'll be getting that going again very soon.  I've also decided to get flow in my schedule in the mornings again - it's the best way to not give up cardio minutes!  And, until I can get back to training, I'm pumping.  I really don't love to do pump, but I know that it'll bee good for me and I know that it will be better than nothing!  I'm going to try the early AM tomorrow - so we'll see how that goes!  Never did I think I'd be an early early morning gym girl!  

Anyway - I'm alive - I have no excuses, it's just time to get back on the horse and finish what I started.  :)  I need to go back to Dick's sporting goods and buy the Nike shirt that says "Make yourself."  (that's how I did it before!)

Anybody else ever struggle with this?  How did you get through it?  What motivated you to get going and fully commit again?

1 comment:

Donita said...

At some point you just get sick and tired of being sick and tired...